“The Completion Process” by Sarbdeep Swan

“The Completion Process” by Sarbdeep Swan

Sarbdeep kindly gave me permission to repost his articles about Teal. They originally appeared at sarbswan.com.

Hello Reader,

I have been hoping not to publish this blog, but I knew deep within me that I would eventually have to present it to the world. The increasingly abusive and dangerous developments with a well known and in my view, psychopathic spiritual teacher have created a situation where myself and many others have to step forward further and tell the truth about what she actually is and to stop or at least make the public aware of the damage she is doing to people who follow her processes, in particular young and vulnerable people.

The damage consists of, but is not limited to: encouraging victimhood and mental illness, false claims of abuse, alienating families, implanting and encouraging grotesque details of familial and satanic sexual abuse which includes BDSM, bestiality, child rape, child murder, alien abduction and abuse, government sponsored mind control, encouraging false and superficial cult-like connections with other clients while demonising partners, friends and family members and a host of other twisted and bizarre tales.

The Process

The Completion Process is not a new or revolutionary process. The use of regression and hypnotherapy type techniques to uncover repressed memories has been used since at least the 1980’s. All manner of unqualified alternative and fringe therapists have used similar processes where a client is taken into a calm, trance like state and talked into memories either gently or through a ‘trigger’ as in the case of The Completion Process.

In a nutshell: TCP practitioners are taught to use the persons trauma or trigger as a way into their psyche, they use an emotional reaction from external stimuli that triggers them into a “memory”. For example, it is taught through TCP that the smell of a particular cologne will trigger someone into the memory of sexual abuse as a child, as that is the cologne their abuser used to wear, or in the case of TCP clients very often their father. Many have been led to believe it was their own father (and many times with their mother) who were the chief abusers, and more often than not ‘pimped’ out in horrific satanic child abuse ceremonies.

Once the person is in the “memory” of abuse they are then taken deeper and deeper into memories to find the original source of the visualisation, this very often goes into “pre-birth” memories. Then, again through visualisation they are then lead to integrating the child into the adult self and to then find a “happy place” in a treehouse or playing with unicorns or whatever the person feels to do in the visualisation. According to TCP the person has now integrated an aspect of their consciousness that had split off at the point of “trauma”, thereby creating integration and healing the clients subconscious mind.

One young woman who was on stage in Miami in December 2014 was led through TCP by Teal Swan. She was led live, in front of a global online audience and approximately 200 participants in the auditorium into ‘memories’ of her ‘abuse’. When this woman’s mind went blank she was directly told by Ms Swan that she could not recall the memories (when she was a baby) of her extremely severe abuse by those who were close to her, because it was so traumatic and horrific her subconscious was protecting her and she was not at that moment ready to face them. But, rest assured they would surface at some point now they had been ‘triggered’. Over the following weeks and months this woman was witnessed in online forums by myself and many others turn into an emotional and paranoid wreck. Blaming her parents for her satanic ritual abuse, involving sickening and elaborate acts. Convincing herself that her problems in life are due to the mind control abuse and programming she suffered as a child and trying to convince anyone that would listen to her that these things actually happened. She even accused a man publicly, a good and kind man who had offered his home to her and her friend as a place to stay during a visit to his city of raping her. The stress he must have been under would have been unimaginable, in the end he spoke publicly and aired his side of the experience of the sadistic and dangerous experience he was in. The last I heard about this woman was that she somehow ended up stranded in Romania on her way to a Teal Swan workshop in France. (she is american) After that I don’t know what happened to her but a sick feeling in my stomach tells me she will not have a good end.

Ms Swan had no more contact with her after the Miami workshop and avoided her messages and attempts at contact. She was focused on other things, that benefited her personal advancement.

There are three key points that I feel the public needs to be aware of, as to why the process is dangerous and, frankly does not work.

1.Teal Swan has plagiarised The Completion Process from The Presence Process

She claims that she has created TCP as an original and revolutionary new technique, and that it has “healed” her. These are lies, blatant and easily proved. I have personally witnessed her using, scribbling on, highlighting through and using The Presence Process by Michael Brown, telling those around her that ‘It’s the best book I’ve ever come across’. She listened to the audio version incessantly, sometimes on long, all day stretches or on long drives. She has falsely claimed that she has created TCP from her own life experience, divine intuition and “universal perspective”. I have learnt in the past 6 months that it was copied from Brown’s work, and this is how I came to that realisation: In a previous blog I wrote about how I was instrumental in her securing the best deal for TCP. Back then, I still believed in her and did know she used Brown’s work for herself and had erroneously assumed TCP was inspired by it, not plagiarised.

At that time I was not aware of the depth of her lies. When my first blog came out a number of people asked me what I meant when I referred to TCP as “her” process. Her plagiarism was becoming more obvious to me by then and I had realised that TCP was copied from another author. I had replied to 4-5 people telling them that she had indeed copied from Brown’s book and to do their own research.

To my surprise every single person came back to me shocked and surprised at the blatant theft of another authors work. Two even copying paragraphs and sentences that were copied word for word and sending them to me.  

They all said that I must speak about this publicly, asked if the original author knew about this and then asking me what can be done about this? It was their reaction that confirmed the truth of this. These were followers of her work that had believed in her and who wanted to believe in her, one who had actually trained with her directly and two that had applied for training. Their shocked reactions confirmed 100% that theft had actually occurred.

Here is an excellent and well researched article that compares and highlights Ms Swans theft and plagiarism from Mr Brown.

I understand that followers of an Indian guru called Swami Nithyananda claim Teal Swan has plagiarised directly from his technique also called ‘The Completion Process’. I cannot say if this is true, it may well be. Having looked at his process it is remarkably similar and she may have stolen from more than one source.

2. False Memories

“The notion that traumatic events can be repressed and later recovered is the most pernicious bit of folklore ever to infect psychology and psychiatry”
– Professor Richard McNally, Director of Clinical Training in the Department of Psychology at Harvard University. Expert in the field of traumatic stress and memory

This is the most important and dangerous part of TCP that need to be discussed.

The mind does not store memories in a pure, unaffected state. Much research has been done by eminent experts well versed in how the mind and memory work and one aspect of memory is that we don’t remember incidents in their original and unfiltered state. One important point of note is that we remember the last time we remembered. For example the mind will add in details from your childhood birthday party, the people who where there, the type of cake you had the clothes you were wearing, even the party itself may be a false memory. Everytime we go back and think of that party, we only remember the last time we thought of that party, so the people there, the type of cake etc is now a part of the most recent memory that we accessed. This has been proven time and time again by experts called as witnesses in court. Memory is also a composite. It will mix in various thoughts, images, tv shows, movies, other peoples experiences, dreams and various other stimuli that creates a whole new, altered experience that is retrieved from the mind.

Please take a look at the British False Memory Syndrome site for an in-depth and clear explanation of False Memory Syndrome. It has on its advisory board, two Emeritus professors and various other professors, doctors and experts in the field of the psychology, psychiatry and the mind and is a detailed resource to understand how False Memory works and its impact on lives.

Here is an excellent article from The Guardian explaining the very serious ramifications of repressed memory therapies

These are extremely informative pieces from Vice looking at False Memories and Satanic Abuse.

A case in the UK of a ‘therapist’ recovering false memories of satanic abuse.

How False Memories are created.

I’m not asking you to believe me. But I do recommend you believe the experts and very real experiences of many people, if you’re still thirsty for knowledge take a look at Elizabeth Loftus for leading information on this subject.

Going into a memory to integrate trauma simply does not heal people, in fact it does the opposite and causes damage to peoples lives, families and relationships. It has not worked for Teal Swan why would it work for anyone else? She is falsely claiming TCP to be a panacea for all ills, misleading and damaging vulnerable people. As someone that constantly claims to be “authentic” and “transparent” If she were honest she would inform everyone that she is addicted to anti anxiety medication, doubling her dose in the past year, so addicted it is creating serious long term health problems. 2-3 therapy sessions a week, numerous ‘healers’ and surrounding herself with sycophantic and obsessed ‘fans’. This is how she manages to cope with life – not because of The Completion Process.

And, yes I did think about the ethics of releasing medical data. As someone that has no compunction making public medical diagnoses about people including denigrating ex partners as ‘psychopaths’ and ’emotionally unavailable’ as well as misleading the public that TCP has cured her, I feel it is in the public interest, authentic and transparent to speak the truth about this matter. There are plenty more avenues I can explore including her misleading lies and hypocrisy in parenting, for example. She has no concern about speaking publicly of another woman’s children, even when repeatedly asked not to mention them, and I see no reason why the same courtesy should not be extended to her. But for now, I am still on the fence about that one.

Just very recently Teal Swan’s current husband wrote a blog writing of her memory of watching a little girls murder with boiling water and then having her neck snapped. They wrote of how she integrated the memory and Ms Swan was healed and cured from that particular trauma. I can tell you now with 100% certainty there was no murder of any little girl that she witnessed, if I am wrong what was her name, she said she witnessed this, has she told the police? Was there ever a search for a missing 6 year old girl? Where were her parents? Whole towns are turned over when a child goes missing. The degradation is becoming worse and the lies have to become ever more elaborate and shocking to keep up the facade.

3. The Completion Process Practitioners

If one is to do deep psychological and therapeutic work it is very important that it is carried out by qualified and experienced professionals. TCP practitioners train for 2-3 days, all based around the cult of one infamously vain and narcissitic personality. Many I’m sorry to say are in no state to be working with clients as therapists and ‘healers’. I have known some of them and some are well meaning people, others are frankly unwell and in severe need of therapy themselves. Frequently mixed up with pseudo-psychology and magical thinking, it is a recipe for disaster. Others, particularly the younger ones, the Snowflake Generation tend to have an entitled view of their healing abilities and ‘qualification’. It is narcissism and delusion on an organised scale. Trickling down from the top, to me it looks like children playing ‘doctors and nurses’, but with very real risks for clients.

Examples of ‘qualified’ practitioners:

  • One young woman, her whole life devoted as personal maid to Teal Swan, in her late 20’s. No education, never had a job, never had a relationship, never been on a date even. No life experience except an uncomfortable obsession and servility towards Ms Swan. So devoted to her master that she recently had one of her quotes tattooed onto her back with a very obvious spelling mistake carried from the original text. It reminded me of cattle branded by its owner. It was the perfect illustration to a point I wanted to make that the sick healing the sick only leads to more sickness and the blind leading the blind will lead everyone off a cliff. Once asked whether she intended to make contact with her family again, her response was “my parents were my abusers and my dad was my [redacted]”. [Redacted] XXXX is the alleged abuser referred to as “Doc” numerous times publicly by Ms Swan and privately sharing his identity with many people over the years. I’m thinking of getting to the bottom of who is lying; either a man is murdering and raping children in satanic ritual ceremonies or Teal Swan is a fantasist and liar and this person has been most maligned by her. Either way, she is the only one that is directly profiting and benefiting from this story, and everyone else is a pawn to be used for her personal ambitions. I would like to see her facing him, in court one day held to account for her numerous and ugly accusations. Personally, I think she is a complete and utter liar and will do or say anything that benefits her. I have no objection if this will trigger legal action so her lies can be scrutinised publicly by professionals. She is terrified of being held to account, because she will be exposed. 
  • A self proclaimed expert on health, diet and weight loss. Clearly and obviously no expertise or experience in what is advertised, lying and misleading vulnerable people. Having your own struggles with weight does not make you an expert in advising others to lose weight. If your car keeps breaking down, that does not qualify you as a mechanic. It is this ass-backward, asinine logic, encouraged by Ms Swan that is at the core of the problems that will eventually surface in real life problems for TCP clients.
  • Another young woman, sadly had to resort to prostitution to pay for her travels and course fees for TCP, I had met her briefly approximately 18 months ago and was informed that she needed to be taken away from the man she was staying with, as he was a “sociopath and dangerous”. Two of us drove her to the property and took her away, with her luggage. I understand she was beaten up by her clients while working as a prostitute and is now a qualified TCP practitioner, advising others how to have healthy relationships, amongst other things. Good for her for working to change her life, but I just feel that a person who has those experiences needs to truly heal themselves first before looking to ‘heal’ others or it will only create more dysfunction, but this time with the addition of memory regression techniques.

Just to be clear, none of us are perfect, and I don’t claim to be either, but it truly is a case of the blind leading the blind and the results will be apparent before long.

The Self Help Industry

It’s all about the numbers at the end of the day. The YouTube figures, the numbers at workshops, the Twitter followers, how many ‘Likes’ you have, and the numbers on the ‘old school’ system of the mailing list…nowadays though, online of course.

The self help industry is valued at 7-8 billion dollars per year in the USA alone, and I can assure you that the tentacles of corporate America are well entrenched in the business of self help. Teal Swan was signed to a leading publisher two years ago, a decision I feel they are questioning due to her constant dramas and the disrepute she brings to herself and those that come into contact with her. The issue is that there is no one young and coming up yet with the kind of numbers she brings to a major publisher. If you look at most self help seminars you will notice that the majority of the demographic to be female and 40+. Teal Swan brings a younger demographic, many in their 20’s and more males than usual. This is gold dust to a corporation, and while the numbers are good her position is guaranteed, I think. Business always comes first and Self Help, second. There is nothing wrong with doing well and making money of course but when vulnerable and hurt people are treated as cattle, no more than a statistic or interpreted as dollar signs, then I don’t think this is right.

When the balance of Liability Vs Reward is tipped more towards her being a liability I suspect she will be unceremoniously dropped .

Her publisher was involved with an incident involving one of their seminars and a case of repressed memories

In conclusion, it does not make me happy to write this blog nor, my first one. But many of us are so sick and fed up of Teal Swans lies, hypocrisy and abuse we will tell the truth about her and the damage she is creating in the world. I had intended to take The Black Swan post down and leave this mess of a former relationship with her in the past, where it surely belongs. Unfortunately, I had learnt that yet more disgusting lies were being spread about me, I have no idea why, other than to perhaps try to discredit and hurt my reputation. One could say ignore it, it doesn’t matter, but I’ve had enough. Kindness is abused and treated with disdain, and frankly, I hit my limit a while ago.

I had sent her an email as I noticed that even with all the current lies being spread, she was still using me on her site. Perhaps it wasn’t the best idea to email when in an annoyed state to her but typical of her she seized on this and posted the email publicly playing the victim card, which she does brilliantly and manipulating her ‘fans’ to feel she is the victim to garner them against me, and others. It’s not the first time she has taken my personal correspondence and made it public, and my patience has run out. Nothing more than a manipulative bully and coward, that uses her position and public profile to attack those that displease her, who then runs and  hides becoming a shivering and emotional mess when she is forced to face up to her abuse. I can assure you that neither myself or those that she has abused (of which there are many gathering now) are about to back down to her. I had warned her previously that if she tells lies about people, the truth will be told about her. Some very serious people are looking at her stories and it won’t be too long before the lies unravel publicly.

For The Completion Process practitioners reading this: You have been lied to. It is not her process, it never was. It has not done anything for her, and won’t do anything for you or the people you are working with, if you truly want to help people then please do it properly and train professionally, with experts. A fringe 3 day course does not make someone a trauma healing expert. Go to the original source of TCP, read and study it in its pure, unadulterated form, as it was created and where Ms Swan educated herself. Acknowledge where the information originated and ensure the author receives his dues.

Currently she is drowning in her own effluent, of her own making and seizing onto anything or anyone she can, she’ll suck in anyone and will do anything to save her own skin, my recommendation to the reader is to keep a safe distance. Emotionally and physically. Reminding me somewhat of a mythic beast, like Hydra or Medusa lashing out as a head is being cut off, in its most dangerous state when wounded and about to fall. Unfortunately for me I don’t have a choice anymore in keeping distance, but there we go. Many people wrote to me after my first blog and gave their thanks and support for speaking up, it was quite moving the amount of support I received, much more than I had expected. Many are also addicted to the drama, and for you I would say this: It is a degradation of the spirit. Everything Teal Swan touches, she degrades. I had held off for nearly a year hoping I that I wouldn’t need to go public, but in the end  the lies and abuse just increased pace, appearing to have been given permission by my silence. This experience is degrading, embarrassing and humiliating. Everything about her creates an ugly, toxic ripple, a blackening of the soul and by far the smartest thing to do is keep away from malignant narcissists, it’s never a good situation, for anyone, even the person reading this, and especially if you have an emotional reaction reading this. In my case it was either remain silent and be damned or speak up and be damned. The only good that will come out of this situation is for people to gain knowledge and to increase public education on a host of matters and issues. The real teachings are always the ones that aren’t formal ‘teachings’.

I have given you a number of links so you can read up and do your own research. Knowledge is power. From knowledge we can discern and become wiser. Choose wisely, always.

I stand by this blog and by my previous blog. If this triggers a court case for ‘slander’, I welcome it. Or should anyone seek my legal testimony, I am ready and willing to go to court and testify under oath that everything I have said is honest and truthful. There is still much I have not spoken of regarding the ‘leader of the authenticity movement’. Unlike Teal Swan and one of the people close to her I won’t be lying under oath and won’t be committing perjury.

Above all, my sympathy and support goes out to the real victims of severe trauma and abuse. Ms Swan has commercialised suffering and victimhood for financial and egoic gains. I hope with more facts coming out, the voice of actual victims will have greater clarity and strength.

The night I released my first blog I dreamt that I was in a swing above an open sewer, as the swing dropped down I climbed up onto it so not to be immersed in the sewage, I managed to keep most of myself clean but my toes on one foot did dip into the sewage and were covered in it. Tonight I hope my dreams are different, an ice-cream while riding a unicorn would be nice, but unlikely I suspect.

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PS. Here is an excellent documentary called Holy Hell. The same patterns and dynamics keep repeating with every new generation, education and awareness is the antidote. A brilliant review of Holy Hell by Gigi Young.


“The Black Swan” by Sarbdeep Swan

“The Black Swan” by Sarbdeep Swan

Sarbdeep kindly gave me permission to repost his articles about Teal. They originally appeared at sarbswan.com

Welcome to my site. I have created this blog for a number of reasons; to use as a platform to share thoughts, ideas, observations, to teach subjects both seen and unseen. ‘Diary of an Observer’ came about as many people have messaged me asking me to continue to engage in teachings and share my experiences and observations. I have had initial resistance to ‘teaching’, as I don’t see myself as a teacher….and thought to myself “who am I to be a teacher?”, but then again, who am I NOT to be a teacher?  There has been so much interest and kindness from complete strangers asking me to write, speak and communicate, I thought; well let’s try this and see what the response is…plus in my view the quality of the most of the ‘teachers’ out there is average at best (with a few, rare exceptions) and I know I have more useful and interesting experiences and observations that can actually make a difference in people’s lives. So the voice in my head settled on ‘Diary of an Observer’ – a happy medium that created a warm feeling behind my sternum and solar plexus. I’ve always been interested in wisdom and the noble existence we have as humans on this planet. I have always loved to share thoughts, feelings and teachings with friends…and I see this site as a natural extension of a circle of friends and wisdom seekers.

I was married to a woman (who from now on I will refer to as Black Swan) who has some public profile, as a spiritual teacher and self proclaimed ‘celebrity’ and ‘spiritual leader’. If you follow her work and read her blogs you’ll get her version of what went on and how we met and how we eventually parted ways. I prefer to remain silent on such matters preferring my private life to not be a z-list reality tv car crash..but so many half truths, lies and misleading versions of reality have been written about me and others, I now have to speak up and tell the truth. It seems she has no concern or care for the feelings of others and their experience in this whole tawdry saga, only for a self-righteous crusade blackswanpreaching ‘authenticity’, which is ironic when you know the truth of this situation. But here is the sting for her: The very ‘fame’ Black Swan uses to attack and vilify others will turn on her, it already is doing so…….fame is a very disloyal friend. Black Swan has been open about her quest for fame, riches and celebrity, but then again she couldn’t hide it if she tried. Those that seek it are seeking to fill a void in themselves that they believe will give them the recognition and respect they desperately seek, and in her case a false sense of security. The more fame they get, the more the cavernous void in their chest opens up into their being, and the more they seek to fill that hole, it never ends. It’s a Gollum type of existence and not pretty to observe close up.

Where to begin? There is so much to share, but we have time and are connected now, so all will come now in good time. I will start with clearing up a couple of things that make me look like a fool and in English slang a ‘mug’. Black Swan wrote a blog a few months that she and her partner, a man I will refer to from now on as Gecko had feelings for each other from the moment they met, which incidentally is a few weeks after we were married. This is a lie and her attempt to paint a ‘romantic picture’.

To start with, here are some of the facts to clear up misconceptions and lies that have been promoted:

  • Gecko was pursuing Black Swan from the moment they met (Jan/Feb 2014). Professing a sleazy ‘love’ for Black Swan, while his wife and children were at home in San Francisco, and we were newlyweds.
  • I have no respect for men that cheat on their wives, especially if they have carried their children. Any man that is not loyal to the mother of his children, has no loyalty to anyone.
  • Black Swan after every meeting with him, would mock his accent and refer to him as ‘Vile’ and ‘Sleazy’, regularly. But was still happy to receive his gifts and attention.
  • Our marriage did not ‘unravel’ after 2 weeks due to incompatibility or my ‘emotional unavailability’, but because I saw an email Black Swan had sent to her ex just 2 weeks into our marriage talking about the sex she had with him and flirting with him. An ex she also vilified as a ‘sociopath’, months before on her blog. When I read this I felt something within me tear and I realised that I’d made a mistake in marrying her. She was not the person I had thought she was, and at the time we were in California to meet her publisher.
  • The situation with Gecko was only one of many. The Prague conference organiser (at that time hopelessly in love with her) was told while I went to get some drinks and returned to an awkward silence between a handful of people that they had a ‘past life connection, she was a queen and he was her king, also that she had dreamt of giving birth to his daughter’. All around 6 months into our marriage. It was another stab that confirmed to me that I needed to exit this marriage.  This sort of nonsense may seem laughable and innoccuous but when a person has undue influence on others, it is important to be mindful of the impact your words and actions have on people, and she knew the affect it would have on him. I will say to this gentleman, you don’t know it but you had a lucky escape, she would have destroyed you and you are now with a decent, honourable and kind woman, you have a much healthier relationship than you ever would have with Black Swan.
  • A very well known Hollywood actor ‘accidentally’ said he found her skype address as he said his stylist has the same name. I listened in the next room; as she was talking and he typed, they flirted with one another, talked about conspiracy theories, she was playing me down referring to me ‘as the guy I married’. They talked of skiing together in Park City – obviously one thing would have led to another, as it was the intention. She will do anything to achieve fame and an affair or infidelity (unless it happens to her) is insignificant. She was so desperate to talk to him she even offered to create a non disclosure agreement she would sign so HE felt comfortable talking to her. I was obviously tense and unhappy about this and many other things. BUT the perspective I had taken consciously after thinking through things very deeply was that which part of her is a damaged little girl and which part of her is a Narcissistic Sociopath? So, initially I took the perspective on this matter and others to ‘educate’ her. I let her know that movie stars have women throwing themselves at them at every turn, and they enjoy the fruits of their success. She is beautiful, yes receives much attention, but all attention is not good. In her mind she thought that by connecting with him, she could be elevated to the ‘A-list’ and in the end they spoke 2-3 times I think, then it fizzled out as far as I know. He went quiet as his wife became pregnant and gave birth to their second child and he did not contact her again while I was there, and she actually complained about this to me! My reply was a curt ‘Well I told you before he doesn’t give a fuck about you, his wife and children are more important to him, as they should be’. I feel writing this that I was possibly a pushover or being weak, I don’t think I am and I hope I don’t come across like that. I wanted to help her understand some of this behaviour and why it wasn’t ok, she literally didn’t get it. But of course when I flirted online with an old friend in London she was ‘devastated’. I did this sitting next to her, she ‘caught’ me and I wanted her to feel what it was like, perhaps this would make her understand the effect of this behaviour, but all it did was expose her selfishness and narcissism, as it was one rule for her and one for everyone else. There were many, many other instances. When we parted ways she actually was proud of herself that she didn’t cheat on me as she had never been faithful before to anyone. I told her ‘it’s nothing to be proud of, you are supposed to be faithful to your partner’. I had to watch her like hawk, and in the end I just decided I didn’t want to live like this, it’s not why I had married and I didn’t need the stress.
  • I was told very quickly by her that her long term housemate and COO was ‘in love with me for the past 12 years’, and she actually said to me that she ‘uses him when in between boyfriends’.
  • I am not ‘emotionally unavailable’, as published on her blogs. I had closed off to Black Swan as to have been emotionally vulnerable with her would be suicide. I had committed to a woman I had expected to have been my wife for the rest of my life. I went in knowing she had many problems and issues and had made a conscious decision to be there for her, a rock in the storminess of life, and her life in particular. What I did not expect was a constant undermining of myself, both public and private, and using her ‘community members’ to interfere in our marriage. Trying to charm then manipulate, then abuse and then finally use victimhood to get her way. All this was while I was watching over her so she can deliver on her ‘mission’.
  • Black Swan did not mention in her last blog that when I left for the UK at the end of March 2015, the purpose was for us to take 3 months apart, work on our marriage and decide to be together or part ways. She was desperately trying to make it work in many different ways, going to a therapist, booking a place for me at ‘The Landmark Forum’, even completing The Landmark Forum herself in April/May 2015 and falsely claiming in a blog that meditating for two hours every day had inspired her to reconcile with her parents, when in truth reconciling with family members is a key part of their curriculum. She was doing everything but looking at her own behaviour and changing it, and by the tone of her blogs it appears that the reconciliation did not last very long.
  • When I got back to London, deeply breathing in the cool crisp air with a touch of dampness, it was a familiar comfort to me. I slept for 4 days solidly, and I thought ‘Jeez, jetlag is really bad this time’. A good friend, former military man said to me ‘that’s not jetlag, it’s an adrenalin dump bruv’. And true to his words on the fifth day my whole body relaxed and became loose again. I had held so much tension, that I was not aware of. My movements felt fluid once more, how I had missed the fluidity of movement, and yet not even realised. A rash that developed on my right hand from stress had cleared up by itself in a week……………I could not ignore the information my body was feeding me…
  • Now, switching back to Black Swan. Around 10 days after my return she had a workshop in San Francisco, this being the home town of Gecko and his family. We spoke the morning of the workshop and I was aware that Gecko had ingratiated himself with her work there, ‘volunteering’ to organise the community house and ‘helping’ with arrangements and attending a meeting at Stanford University with the intention to have her speak there, I understand from her that he was insulted by the person they met and nothing came of the Stanford meeting. Now what is interesting is that everyone knew he was after her, so we knew not to leave her alone with him, because there is a vulnerability to her and if she feels cornered will she will to anything to appease her assailant. In the conversation before the workshop she told me that at a dinner Gecko ‘triggered’ her into a disassociative state as he informed her his favourite food is foie gras, how that admission can send someone into a ‘disassociated ’ state I don’t quite know and in a disgusted tone she also told me that he confessed to her that he had cheated on his wife 5 times in the past year. (While at the same time trying to get her to cheat on me). I never liked the guy and you’ve probably worked out why by now.
  • Fast forward to mid June and it was clear that we were not going to work, as on a personal level I didn’t like her, I hated her ego and her narcissism, her self obsession with her ‘emotions’ and ‘feelings’ as if nothing else mattered and no one else had emotions and feelings. I didn’t trust her anymore and I was rapidly losing respect for her. She hated my apathy and my ‘coldness’ and called me ‘British’, ‘pretentious’ and ‘emotionally unavailable’. Yes I am British and proud Brit, and yes I was emotionally unavailable to her as I was done with the soap opera aspect of the marriage. You can decide for yourself if I am ‘pretentious’, my writing will inform you well enough to have accurate discernment. I enjoyed working with her, loved the deal making and was preparing her for the world stage. She needed to clean up her act first though and I tried to help her understand that it is not about Fame, Money and being a Celebrity, but about helping people. Help the people and the fame, status and money will automatically come, should you desire it that badly…but don’t make it solely about that….in the long term it’s a recipe for disaster.
  • So, back to mid June – It looked like we were going to part ways and I wanted to do it with mutual love, kindness and respect, despite all that had happened. One way of doing this was to represent her to achieve the best deal possible from her publisher. She was offered a $25,000 advance for her first book with them and she was about to sign on an offer of $50,000 advance for ‘her’ second book, ‘The Completion Process’ (I will write a whole blog on the sorry saga of ‘her’ process another time). I told her ‘Stop!, Wait! Don’t sign, I’ll get you a much better deal than that. Let me talk to the book agent I’ll get you $100,000, I know I can do it’. I spoke with the agent and said look, I know we can get $100,000, she took a sharp intake of breath, and I told her the reasons why. Her brand is growing, the numbers, how ‘her’ process will be marketed and used and how it was intended to be the bedrock of her teachings, she’s young, we can get another 20-30 years from this book at least. I sent her 5 or 6 bullet points that I wanted her to use to persuade Black Swan’s publisher that she was worth betting on. I also told the agent I’d like to renegotiate her contract and why, she agreed to this and said this was not that unusual to do but that could we do this after the offer is finalised with the publisher? I said yes, of course. Over the next 2 weeks or so emails went back and forth and the publisher did increase their offer to $100,000. I knew they would. I wanted to hit the psychologically important six figure number, as we had now reached a new plateau, one that will, or should only lead to the same or a higher offer next time. It was an investment in an exciting, new, edgy prospect. The agent and I discussed her contract and as she was not responsible for securing the deal but her expertise was useful for the intricate aspects of the deal, I suggested cutting her fee from 15% of the advance and 15% royalties, to a flat 10% of the advance. My view was that Black Swan is worth investing in as a long term prospect and the agent agreed. I did this for Black Swan as it was an expression of love, to say that I care for you and for your best interests, we may not have worked as husband and wife but look, we can be kind and respectful to each other. I told her I did not want any money for this, just accept this as a gift from me. I could of course have asked for 5% or 10% and it easily would have justified my involvement.
  • Now what happened next truly surprised me. I saw a photo of her at the hairdresser on her instagram account, her eyes seemed cold and hard and I could see cruelty and disdain in her smirk as she looked at herself in the mirror. I know her well and my instincts knew it was because she had met someone. A little bit of a shock as it was literally a day or two after we had agreed that we had hit the three month deadline we had given ourselves. I didn’t really want to know much about her life, just that we should divorce with love and kindness, no one wants anything from the other, let’s just do this respectfully. A close friend who had believed in our union had worked out that she was now seeing Gecko, he told her ‘you tell Sarb, or I will’. I racked my brains to think who she could be with and it felt cheap and tasteless that we hadn’t even filed for divorce let alone signed the paperwork and her legs had already flown open. But, sadly I can’t say I was surprised. So my friend hinted that it was Gecko, his face had come across my vision momentarily, but I thought to myself ‘no way, she’s got more taste than that’. I had hoped it wasn’t him 1) Because we were still married and he was pursuing her during the course of the marriage, the message that gives out is awful. 2) He was viewed as a pot bellied, middle aged, mid level manager type trying to get in with a group of youngish hippy types, it seemed like someone’s dad had gate crashed the party. 3) Erm…his wife and children. 4) I hated the thought that deception, manipulation, trickery and treachery had worked, another awful message to put out into the world.

The real problem in the context of this situation is that she loves attention and adoration from wherever it comes and I could not and did not want to do anything about that. I just had to make a decision whether this was what I wanted in my life, and as you have gathered the answer is a definitive No. If it had not been him, it would have been someone from any handful of passers by that gave her attention, the only reason it is Gecko is because he was the most persistent, sending gifts and emails and finally she could not hold back any longer and she admitted that she had caved in through tears to a friend. The sad part is that she did suffer some child abuse and this has deeply damaged her ability to discern in relationships. Truth is, if she were a person with a high level of self worth, she would not be with him. She constantly used to insult him behind his back, then to do a complete 180 degree turn and claim now she is cured and this is the love of her life, does that sound like a balanced, healthy person?

She mentioned in her latest blog that she had attended SLAA (Sex and Love Addicts Anonymous), implying she is now ‘sober’. She had attended 1-2 meetings and 3 at most last year, she is not cured, she’s deeply in the grip of her illness, and the most unconscious about it she has ever been. Having to insist a number of times on her blog that she’s sober is an indication of this. Like a drunk who stinks of booze, claiming they are now sober because they went to AA a couple of times. When I went back to London she was shattered and in truth she is still desperately hurt by our break up and like a scavenger, he fed on the rotten carcass of our relationship. She, like a junkie who was trying to sober up and I was really hoping this time she would make a healthy break, was trying to go cold turkey, I even found a residential retreat in California that she could attend for her illness. But, like a pimp, he waved the needle in front of her and in the end she just couldn’t hold off for long enough and the warm, glow of her addiction was pulsating back through in her body again.

It is a pity that she couldn’t just get on with her life and leave me alone to get off with my life. But, part of the illness is that in order to make herself ‘right’, I and others have to be ‘wrong’. ‘This time I am cured, my ex was just a part of my old damaged pattern and now I’m healthy and sober’. By implying and misleading there is something wrong me with, it absolves her of her own responsibility. Everyone knows things will crash hard this time, it’s so predictable, it’s boring, and I have done the best I can to distance myself from this inevitability.

She also lied once more on the latest blog when saying that she has broken her pattern and deliberately waited to get married this time. The fact is she couldn’t get married as she was still married up until a few weeks ago, our divorce only finalising in December, as did his. Each to their own, but no more manipulations or lies will be tolerated. If I am lying, then I openly invite Black Swan to publish the divorce certificate and prove me wrong.

I am saddened that things worked out the way that have done, and that she could not just get on with her life without the abuse. I had expected us to have been friends and remain on good terms for the rest of our lives and feel sad for her in her illness, but she has been so nasty and manipulative to me and others I have decided to step forward with this blog now, as it has been nearly a year since I left Utah and I am still being attacked, directly and indirectly. If she were just able to get on with her life without vilifying me I would not have written this blog, and the others that will follow. I’m also horrified how Gecko’s ex wife has been treated by him and Black Swan, why attack a mother of two kids who is rebuilding her life? That lady has been very dignified and noble in her silence. I think it is shameful to use a public platform, especially one intended to share spiritual teachings as a weapon to attack others.

So now I respond, and I will be responding in full.

I have ‘shadows’ too of course, I’ve never claimed to be perfect, and they have assumed that because I prefer privacy as opposed to an untruthful and misleading ‘openness’ that I would not respond or ever speak publicly, so in the future I will write frankly about my shadows and shortcomings and will explain why they were created in the hope that it can it can inspire and help others,  and also to save Black Swan the trouble of ‘exposing’ me.

I will now be addressing every time Black Swan lies, manipulates, deceives and exaggerates. I fully expect her to respond nastily, and certainly the desperate state of victimhood will be milked heartily: ‘Poor me, why did this happen to me, why has my ex husband joined my haters’. I am prepared for all eventualities. I will release a blog around once a week, as and when appropriate. This blog is an introduction, a flavour of things to come, and is longer than I expected it to be. I will release some documents that will authenticate and confirm what I write. I will give a voice to the voiceless, and I will expose lies, deceit and inauthenticity.

I will also be writing about much more interesting and useful topics, and will eventually focus only tumblr_static_colorful_abstract_background_on these topics, that enhance our life experience. These will include the ‘5 Minute Masterclass’ series, ‘Economy of Movement’, and a new take on ‘Honouring our Ancestors’ for example. I want you to join me on this journey. Pursuing fame and posting photos of myself doesn’t interest me, I’m interested in sharing this journey with like minded people and seeing what emerges from this, and where it leads us. I also feel a responsibility to honour the legacy of my dear friend and teacher, Stuart Wilde. I will pay respect to his teachings.

Finally, Thankyou to all the people that have written to me asking me to speak, write and to create a platform. I have done this because you have asked me. Thankyou for your emails and messages of support. It is remarkable to me to still receive daily messages from people from all over the world, having never met and to receive so much kindness and warmth  from complete strangers. I endeavour to reply to each and every person, forgive me if I have not done so yet.

I’ll develop this site, and if you want to keep in touch, receive updates and take part in discussion, please click on this link: Sarb Swan.

Now, let the games begin.

See you around.

Sarbdeep Swan

A Teal Swan Masterpost: The Spiritual Catalyst Exposed

A Teal Swan Masterpost: The Spiritual Catalyst Exposed

Her Past

Teal either lied about traveling to and living in eight different countries by the age of 20, or she lied about enduring 13 years of ritual abuse. (Or she lied about both.) In the bio on Teal’s old website from early 2005, she claims to have lived in or travelled to New Zealand, Fiji, Rarotonga, Paris, Tokyo, Milan, Mexico, and Tahiti. Teal now alleges that she escaped from her abuser at age 19, just over one year before her website was launched. She has made no mention of these trips since becoming a spiritual teacher. (Correction: Teal’s official bio states, “Modelling [sic] trips were the only trips [Teal’s abuser] condoned Teal taking because she would pay him if she made any money at it.” However, she has not mentioned living in any of the specific locations listed above, and the idea that she took frequent breaks from severe satanic abuse in order to travel the world strains credulity.)

In 2011, Teal’s associate Blake Dyer assumed false identities to promote Teal online. He posed as a journalist named “Jason Freedman” to write this article about Teal and this letter to the editor of the Herald Journal. He appears to have posted under other pseudonyms, too, as you can see here. (For proof that Freedman is 13606841_1752610525022230_7710823449028952611_nactually Blake, go here and search “Jason Freedman.”)

In 2004, Teal wrote a loving letter full of sensitive, personal information to the man she would later accuse of abuse. In this letter, she told her alleged abuser that she loved and missed him, and provided him with her phone number, her PO Box, the city and neighborhood in which she was living, and the color of her house. (Search page for “the letter.”)

In that letter, Teal also lied that she would soon be appearing in Playboy (a claim that also appears here), and that she had finished fourth in a national skiing competition. Both of these claims are false. (Search for “iplayboy” and “fifth.”)

Teal’s abuse claims contain misinformation about the Mormon religion. According to Teal, she was targeted by a Mormon cult as a child because she was exhibiting psychic and healing abilities. She claims that these skills were perceived as gifts of priesthood,  which, according to the Mormon faith, should only be exhibited by men. According to the Encyclopedia of Mormonism, this is untrue.

Teal says that she distanced herself from spirituality as much as possible after escaping from her abuser and throughout her athletic career, but the evidence suggests otherwise. Her US Telemark Ski Association profile from 2006 states that she was a Wiccan high priestess and was training to be a Quantum Touch practitioner. In the “About Teal” section of her old website (2005), she lists Wicca and qigong among her personal interests. In the aforementioned letter, Teal mentions having sessions with psychics, studying color therapy, planning to attend the Berkeley Psychic Institute, and perceiving nonphysical entities.

Teal stated that, by interviewing her alleged abuser, Ethics and the Modern Guru had “ruined” her case against him, because their actions would have alerted him to the investigation. This makes absolutely no sense, as Teal has been discussing the case publicly for five years. Here is her exact comment from a May 2016 interview: “[B]y becoming really famous, I’ve developed a bunch of hate groups and they discovered the true identity of my abuser. So, they went behind my back and they did an interview with him. And so now, he knows all of what’s going on and…what he will have done is warned everybody to hide the evidence. So…the chief of police who’s in charge of the case is furious right now because it’s14045871_1771646343118648_6886369165838251090_n a ruined case, basically.” 

Ethics and the Modern Guru gave Teal and Blake an opportunity to share their side of the story by answering some questions for the publication. They did not cooperate. (Search page for “squandered.”) Their conversation with Blake can be read here (search “interview with Blake Dyer”).

Teal was the patient of a therapist who implanted false memories of Satanic ritual abuse into the mind of her sister-in-law. Barbara Snow went on voluntary probation to avoid the charges of unprofessional conduct. Proof of Teal’s association with Snow exists only in private communications, which can’t be published, but I have personally seen confirmation.

Teal claimed that, during her youth, part of her role as a cult member was to torture other children. During her Portland workshop Teal said, “Okay, so, in my childhood…[in] the cult that I was a part of, they put me in charge of mentally programming children. So I was the one that would bring them in, hook them up to electrodes, and torture them. That was my introduction to the subconscious mind.” (The comment appears at 54:30 in this video.)

Teal appears to have broken the law by putting false information on her driver’s license. In the trailer of her documentary, Blake states that the address on Teal’s license is actually the address of a police station. This is illegal. No exceptions. The trailer has since been set to private on Youtube. (Page search “driver.”)

In this blog, Teal falsely claims that she was taken by her abuser to a Blackfoot reservation in southern Idaho to participate in a peyote ceremony at age eight. There are no Blackfoot reservations in southern Idaho, most sources (though not all) agree that the Blackfoot tribe do not use peyote, and it is highly doubtful that the community would have allowed a random child to illegally partake in the ritual.

Her Teachings

Teal has plagiarized many authors. The list includes psychologist and author John Welwood, Robert Agustus Masters, the website of SOAS University of London, Dr. Joel Isaacs, an article on Recoveryranch.com, Mayo Clinic’s website, a Collective-Evolution writer named Vanessa Petronelli, Wikipedia, and the show Fullmetal Alchemist.

Teal has also plagiarized Michael Brown, author of The Presence Process and Alchemy of the Heart. The post Teal wrote defending herself against these accusations is full of half-truths and misinformation. For example, compare her vague summary of Week 9 of TPP to the section in this post titled “Core Negative Patterns.”

The section titled “Mining for Gold” in Teal’s book Shadows Before Dawn was taken from this blog post by Steve Pavlina. This is an excerpt from Pavlina’s post, and this is from Teal’s book.

It also appears that she plagiarized Abraham-Hicks, and she lied that she had never heard of their work before she began her career as a spiritual teacher. This post by “Jason Freedman” (Blake Dyer) reveals that he was aware of the similarities between their teachings all along, and even used those similarities as an opportunity to promote Teal. During her stay with Teal, Cameron discovered that she and Blake owned a set of Abraham-Hicks DVDs. (Search page for “Abraham.”)

She says that she was born “endowed with objective universal truth.” The claim appears here.

Teal’s attitude toward suicide is dangerous. Teal advised both her ex-boyfriend (known as “Fallon”) and former community member Cameron Clark to consider killing themselves. Tragically, 14034801_1769462666670349_7258762496387048474_none of Teal’s clients committed suicide in 2012. Teal later referred to the incident as “interesting.” Posts by people struggling with depression and suicidal ideation are common in Teal’s Facebook group, Teal Tribe. Despite this, it took Teal until January of 2016 to make this video and share a suicide hotline number.

Teal uses methods that have been proven to lead to false memories and confabulation. While guiding people through her processes and counseling them on stage during workshops, she has been recorded asking leading questions, using persuasive language, telling subjects how they feel and what they are perceiving, and attempting to convince them that they have repressed traumatic memories that must be recovered using her techniques. Here, she states that people “often need a bit of coaxing” from their therapists in order to recover repressed memories.

Teal has demonstrated that she is willing to cause emotional and psychological distress in her followers to advance her own agenda. Here, she instructs her viewers to relive the greatest trauma from their past in vivid detail. She then instructs them to imagine her denying that the traumatic events had never happened to them, saying, “Do you feel like you’re going crazy yet?” This comment left below the video demonstrates how cruel and psychologically damaging the exercise is.

Teal admitted that the Completion Process can lead to self-harm and suicide. The statement was made during this August 2016 webinar.

She has predicted her own assassination. In this September 2016 interview, Teal said that she was “a match to a very gruesome public murder in every single one” of her life paths.

Teal lied that she was hired to speak at the UN about the refugee crisis. In a series of comments on her Facebook page in December 2015, Teal insisted that “the Syrian refugees are not refugees.” She went on to say that she had been hired to address the UN on the subject, which was untrue.

Her Personal Life

In 2013, Teal verbally abused Cameron Clark on an episode of Shadow House. Cameron left the community and went on to share her full story.

Teal diagnosed Fallon, her then-boyfriend, as a psychopath, and announced it to her followers on Shadow House and on her blog. She publicly shamed him and made him confess all of his supposed wrongdoings to her online community.

Teal lied that she would13782256_1759466731003276_6316016445185799066_n be willing to fight for her “hater’s” right to free speech. In a May 2016 blog post, she stated that she values authenticity so highly she would even defend Cameron Clark’s legal right to criticize her. (Page search “court.”) In September 2016, Cameron received a cease and desist letter for speaking out against Teal. (1, 2, 3.) The lawyer had responded to this Teal Tribe post, and was out of jurisdiction.

Teal’s husband lied about the identity of Sarbdeep’s friend to make it appear that he was threatening Teal’s life. In September 2016, Teal violated Sarbdeep’s privacy by sharing one of his private emails in Teal Tribe. Days later, her current husband, Ale, wrote this blog attacking him and sharing his email once again. This time, Ale had changed the identity of Sarbdeep’s friend “J” to a hit man.

According to one workshop attendee, Teal told her volunteers that Ale’s ex-wife had hired a hit man to kill her. 

Ale also spread false rumors about Sarbdeep and his ex-wife. Soon after receiving this message from Sarbdeep, I found out that Ale had also told a workshop volunteer that his ex-wife and Sarbdeep were sleeping together. (1, 2.)

Teal allegedly pressured Ale to have kambo administered through six burn marks to his face, against his will. In a March 2017 blog post, he wrote, “…I was thinking that the last thing I wanted to do in the world was to have burn marks on my forehead.  Especially seeing as I had an important upcoming business meeting in the US. I started to complain, revolt and state clearly that I did not want to do it. Teal started to experience genuine sadness and she shed a couple of tears…I accepted reluctantly to have Kambo administered to my forehead as I reminded myself that my relationship with her is so much more important than looking good.” Strangely, Ale has no residual scarring from the burns.

* This post will be updated regularly as new information surfaces. In addition to the lovely folks whose blogs I have already credited in the links above, special thanks goes to the people of Truth Tribe who have helped piece this information together.

An Open Letter to Teal Tribe

An Open Letter to Teal Tribe
Originally posted here on July 24th, 2016.
Yesterday afternoon, I was kicked out of the tribe for voicing my concerns that Teal’s healing methods could lead to False Memory Syndrome, and for linking to this article by Michael James. For those of you who never got a chance to read it, my post is below, followed by a summary of the events leading up to the removal. For those of you who already know what happened, you might want to scroll down a bit.
(A side note: A part of me cringes when I read that sentence about the woman being “unstable and delusional.” I wish I had found a gentler, more compassionate way to say that. In fact, I wish I could have made my point without sharing her story at all, but I felt it was too important. But my point is this: She is the victim here. I don’t want to sound accusatory or draw any negative attention to her. It’s about Teal and her methods.) 


(If you haven’t watched “How To Heal The Emotional Body,” you can do so here.)


I received many thoughtful comments. Naturally, some of you strongly disagreed with me for holding Teal accountable, but every single reply was respectful, and I felt that my words gave way to some wonderful conversations and insights. Knowing that I was bringing up a very controversial and emotionally charged issue, I felt pleasantly surprised and very appreciative of the overall response. Thanks, everyone! 

Yesterday morning, Teal left a few comments below my post. I replied to her soon after. Notice how she refers to Mr. James as a friend. 


I am still not sure how conflicts over the truth or falsehood of abuse memories “ruin” anything, especially when the consequences of such memories and beliefs are so serious. But, anyway. My second reply: 


Immediately after I wrote this second comment, I couldn’t view my post anymore. I realized that I had been kicked out of Teal Tribe. Wow. Why? My post was controversial, but I had been kind and polite to everyone. There hadn’t been any arguments. It happened so fast that I don’t know whether Teal even read my replies. 

Later, I found out that she had deleted the thread and made this follow-up post: 


Some things to think about…

I found Teal’s post and earlier comments very interesting, and they inspired the following ideas and questions: 

  1. Teal says she wants a constructive conversation. Why did she delete my post and remove me from her group without responding to me? I presented my thoughts to her respectfully, asked a genuine question, and I even thanked her for commenting. How has Teal demonstrated that she truly is “more than willing” to discuss challenging topics? Can you think of specific examples where she has dialogued openly and transparently with outsiders who do not necessarily share her views?
  2. When she replied to me, Teal referred to James as a friend of hers. Minutes later, she called him a hater and insisted that he was bashing her for publicity. What changed her mind? Does Teal’s follow-up post make any sense to you? How is this hateful? It doesn’t seem like James has anything personal against Teal. The article has nothing to do with her, right?
  3. Teal shared her thoughts on regression in general in response to James’ article, but she only dedicated one sentence to the anonymous woman who I believe has False Memory Syndrome. At the end of her fourth comment, Teal insisted that this woman would not be so troubled if she hadn’t been abused. (This statement isn’t visible in my screenshot. Sorry about that. The post was deleted and I was banished before I had a chance fix it.) Why didn’t Teal address this issue more clearly, or defend the role she played in the woman’s memory recoveries?
  4. Teal loves authenticity and strongly resists those who try to “censor” her, even when her words reveal private information about others and portray them in a negative light. She says that her message is never hateful and her intent is never malicious (though, I’m not sure Ale’s ex-wife and the women described here would agree). Was my post hateful or malicious? More importantly, how radical is Teal’s concept of authenticity if she is the only one in Teal Tribe to reap its full benefits? 
  5. Many people who once worked with Teal closely have fallen out with her in recent years. Cameron. Jared (“Fallon”). Sarbdeep. The couple from the Czech Republic. Michael James. (There are probably more that I’m forgetting right now.) Some of them have spoken out publicly and their stories often match. Are they haters? Are they lying?
  6. If we discover that a spiritual teacher’s techniques have caused unintended harm, if we find out that some of their methods are questionable, is it hateful to warn the community and ask for others’ opinions? Do you want to be a part of a community in which you are not allowed to warn other members about risks, danger, or unethical practices if the warning happens to wound the leader’s ego?
  7. Have you ever seen Teal admit to a mistake or offer an apology? 

Finally, I want to offer a quote from Teal’s blog, “Cult or Movement?” This is one of the ways Teal differentiates her group from a cult: 

“Questioning is encouraged; doubt is seen as normal and a healthy part of expansion…A call to discover personal truth. Dissent does not lead to punishment. People are welcomed in the group even if their opinion varies from my own or other members’.” 
Is it true? 
Thanks for reading, everyone! I hope you will consider these questions. Though I have spoken critically of Teal, I do wish her the best. It saddens me that she is so easily hurt, and that she seems to bring so much drama upon herself. 

I haven’t posted this to complain about the injustice of my removal. I no longer want to be a member of Teal Tribe, though I hope to keep in touch with many of you. I just wanted to document the incident and and share my perspective, to provide some contrast to Teal’s deflection. Many of you won’t agree with me, of course, and that’s okay. 

Be well. 
Have a wonderful day. 
And remember…

Update: Why am I blaming Teal? How serious is the risk of FMS? Who is Barbara Snow? 

I’ve realized that I haven’t backed up my claims about Teal’s methods very thoroughly. A few people who have commented in Teal’s defense seem to think that I’m jumping to conclusions and “slandering” her. For those of you who don’t feel that Teal should be held responsible, I want to say that there is no doubt in my mind that she played a major role in this. The woman I mention in my original post has stated in Teal Tribe that Teal’s advice (“What if I told you there’s a hell of a lot more you don’t remember?”) actually caused her to wonder whether a particular family member had abused her as a child. This post should still be available in the group if anyone doesn’t believe me. I have no doubt that Teal’s words affected her deeply.

We meet with spiritual teachers because we trust their guidance. We believe in their wisdom and power. As followers of Teal, we believe that she is a special soul who has overcome enormous obstacles to find happiness and stability. We believe that she can see our thoughts, our energy, and our futures. Because she tells us that she can. Of course this woman took Teal’s advice seriously. Of course Teal’s words influence her followers. Is it so wrong to expect her to use that influence carefully?

I also feel as though the people who are still defending Teal are underestimating the danger and prevalence of false memories. So, here are some resources:

  • The Problem of Leading Questions explains the risks of asking leading questions to a subject under hypnosis. Teal goes much further than asking leading questions in this video. The woman I refer to in my original post was not in a state of hypnosis or meditation while Teal was giving her advice, but Teal’s guidance was obviously intended to directly influence her conclusions about her past. 
  • Current Scientific Understandings About How False Memories Can Form, from the False Memory Syndrome Foundation.
  • Making Memories is a documentary on the dangers of Recovered Memory Therapy, a practice that appears to have a lot in common with Teal’s process. 
  • Why Recovered Memory Therapy is Bad Therapy. Some key points that I feel also apply to Teal’s methods: 
    • “Some RMT therapists over-attribute common psychological complaints as signs of forgotten childhood sexual abuse. In their zeal to find memories, these therapists overlook any and all alternative explanations for the patient’s complaints.” 
    • “RMT therapists ignore basic psychological principles that all individuals are suggestible, and that patients in distress seeking psychotherapy are particularly likely to adopt beliefs and biases of their therapist.” 
    • “Many RMT therapists have studied neither basic sciences related to memory, nor the diagnosis of actual diseases of memory. Their knowledge is often based on a single weekend seminar, as opposed to years of formal training in any graduate program they attended to get their licenses.” 
  • Recovered Memory Therapy (RMT) on ReligiousTolerance.org. 
    • “About 15 to 20% of persons with memories recovered via RMT went on to recover memory of ritual abuse and Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA)” 

One therapist named Barbara Snow allegedly implanted false memories of satanic abuse and military testing into the mind of her sister-in-law and persuaded her niece that her father had molested her, in addition to several other forms of unprofessional conduct. If the name Barbara Snow sounds familiar to you, it may be because she has already been mentioned here and here. Because Teal Swan was her patient. The fact that Snow treated Teal has been verified in private conversations, which can’t be published, unfortunately. But I am certain that Snow treated her. And it appears that she may have inspired some of Teal’s techniques.


Restoring Integrity: Teal and The Presence Process

Restoring Integrity: Teal and The Presence Process
If you like Teal Swan, you should probably buy these books.

A couple of months ago, a former follower of Teal’s filled me in on an interesting rumor. She had heard that Teal’s Completion Process had been plagiarized from Michael Brown, author of The Presence Process and Alchemy of the Heart. I had been very curious about the true origins of the Completion Process ever since Ma Nithya Swarupapriyanda released a video accusing Teal of plagiarizing her guru, Paramahamsa Nithyananda. The dialogue brought on by Swarupapriya’s video led me to discover this post by LaVaughn, which eventually led me to abandon Teal’s teachings. My interest in the source of this technique grew when Teal’s ex-husband, Sarbdeep, also hinted that the process was plagiarized in this blog post. I decided to investigate. I took one glance at Brown’s website and immediately spotted this incredible…synchronicity.

This is the homepage of Brown’s site:

This is from Teal’s article, “Spirituality 3.0“:

This is from Teal’s blog post titled “True or False?“:

And this is one of Teal’s very own quotes:

Knowing that Teal’s video called “How to Heal the Emotional Body” was an introduction to the Completion Process, I decided to compare its contents to Michael Brown’s book. Immediately, I noticed more parallels. The vocabulary and philosophical underpinnings of both spiritual teachers’ work are strikingly similar. Both authors use many of the same words and phrases: “emotional body,” “unconditional presence,” “feeling signature,” “authenticity,” and “integration.” According to Teal and Michael Brown, we must be present with our feelings in order to integrate our unresolved pain from childhood, pain that scarred us in the first seven or eight years of life during our emotional development. Both teachers instruct you to journey back to traumatic events in order to rescue your inner children. If you’re familiar with Teal’s brand of inner child work, this quote from The Presence Process might ring a bell:

“Unless we are prepared to reach back through time and space and rescue our child self by bringing it into the safety of the present moment, where we can give it the unconditional love and attention it is calling for, we as adults will never experience authentic peace.” (177)

Eventually, I realized that Teal’s theft of Brown’s writing wasn’t limited to the Completion Process and “How To Heal The Emotional Body.” In one case, an entire chapter of The Presence Process had been tweaked and repackaged as an “Ask Teal” video. Quotes from Teal’s website and Facebook page, supposedly authored by Teal herself, turned out to be taken directly from Brown’s second book, Alchemy of the Heart. After just a few hours of research, I concluded that the core messages of Teal’s work for the last two or three years were actually taken from Brown’s teachings. Inner child work, shadow work, healing trauma, emotional authenticity, cultivating self-love by accepting our feelings—all of these concepts trace back to Michael Brown’s writing.

Instead of taking the time to find passages that Teal has copied word-for-word, I have only done enough research to confirm that Teal stole her ideas from Brown. The Teal fans among you may be quick to dismiss these similarities as mere coincidences. Please keep in mind that this entire post was compiled using my limited memory of Teal’s teachings and a search engine. I have no doubt that the extent of the plagiarism far surpasses what I have already uncovered. If I had enough time and energy, I could probably take any sentence from The Presence Process and find, at least, a paraphrased version somewhere among Teal’s videos, blogs, or quotes. It’s that bad. Without further ado, here is an overview of the similarities I found between Teal’s material and Michael Brown’s work.

Core Negative Patterns

When I first read through Session Nine of The Presence Process, I knew it seemed oddly familiar to Teal’s video titled “Find Your Negative Imprint, Find Your Life Purpose.” These practices have different goals. Brown’s exercise will help you “restore emotional balance into the quality of [your] life experience,” while Teal’s process promises to help you
understand the very meaning of your existence. However, with the exception of Step 3, which Teal glosses over, and Step 5, which she omits completely, these exercises are nearly identical.

Here is a breakdown of the process in Michael Brown’s book:

  1.  How Does it Always Turn Out?
    “The object of Step One is to access a word or a phrase that describes the common denominator to the way all our intimate relationships have generally ended or soured.” (242)
  2. How Am I Feeling?
    The object of Step Two is to find a word or a phrase that describes the common negative emotional outcome of our failed attempts at intimate relationships. This common emotional signature is the key to uncovering the theme of the way all our intimate relationships end. This theme will be ‘our negative pattern’, and this pattern will be our unconscious definition of love.” (243)
  3. How Do I Share This With My Family?
    “If we can see our negative emotional pattern manifesting in some form in the life experiences of our immediate family, then we know that we are on the right track. The reason for this is that our unconscious definition of love is not something that is exclusive to us. It is something we inherited from our parents and that they inherited from theirs.” (244)
  4. What is the Opposite of My Unconscious Definition?
    “Step four is simple but often challenging. It requires that we now take that one word or phrase that describes our unconscious definition of love and ask ourselves what its opposite is.” (244)
  5. Giving is Receiving.
    “This fifth step calls upon us to give the very thing that we seek to receive.” (246)

Here is a summary of the process in Teal’s video:

  1. “Once we feel our mind quieting, then we survey all of our previous significant relationships, the ones where you really felt like there was love there. Now I want you to think about these relationships going south…Dive into the experience of these relationships beginning to sour, failing, and ending.”
  2. And I want you to ask yourself this question: ‘What did I feel after they ended?’ Notice that no matter the circumstances or who you were with, the feeling is exactly the same…Then [after being present with the emotion for some times] I want you to ask yourself, ‘How do I feel?’”
  3. “Now, with the knowledge of this negative core imprint, I want you to look back consciously at your life. See how it is the most familiar frequency you’ve experienced in this life…”
“…and use that to become aware of it’s opposite.” Teal suggests using a thesaurus to “pinpoint the [word] which feels like the opposite vibration of your core imprint. This opposite Vibration is in fact, your Life’s Purpose.”

In-to-me-see and Real-eyes-ation

This is one of Teal’s “original” quotes:

These images are from chapter one of Alchemy of the Heart by Michael Brown:

This is from Teal’s article called “The ‘Please Love Me’ Dynamic“:

This is taken from Donna Baker Church’s review of Alchemy of the Heart, which was featured on Namaste Publishing’s official website until very recently:

I don’t have a copy of Alchemy of the Heart just yet, but this quote from Church’s review is strong evidence that Teal copied her play on the word “intimacy” from Brown’s book.

“Ask Teal” vs. The Presence Process


Teal Swan:

Teal tells Blake to close his eyes and “continuously breathe.” She demonstrates. “We want no unnecessary pauses between breaths. This allows our consciousness to come to the present moment.” (“How To Heal The Emotional Body,” 14:36)

Michael Brown:

“We begin the Presence Process with “consciously connected breathing,” which “assist[s] us to consistently gather and maintain present moment awareness…” (133)

“We connect our breathing naturally. In other words, we breathe in and out without pausing between our breaths.” (134)

What Distracts Us from the Now

Teal Swan:

This means you can’t ever be in the Present Moment. You can’t ever be fully present with yourself in the here and now, because the past trauma continues to come up again and again in order to reintegrate itself. It’s asking you to become whole.” (“How To Heal The Emotional Body,” 7:19)

Michael Brown:

“This Process has repeatedly demonstrated to me that it is our deeply suppressed emotional issues that unconsciously distract us from the present moment of our life experience…In essence, The Presence Process is a pathway that empowers us to release and integrate these emotional blockages.” (8)

What Brings Us Back

Teal Swan:

The alternative is to completely embrace your emotions and your feelings, no matter how painful or uncomfortable they may be. The alternative is to completely be present with and to sit with your emotions. It’s to learn from them—to hear what they want you to hear, to see what they want you to see.” (“How To Heal The Emotional Body,” 9:00)

Michael Brown:

“We are being invited to overcome a powerful reactive reflex to instinctively run from our physical, mental, and emotional pain and discomfort. Instead, we are being asked to embrace it with our full attention and with our most compassionate intention, to keep our breathing connected, and to gaze deeply into it. Instead of running from it, we are being encouraged to face it and to willingly seek out its center so that we can open ourselves up to insight.” (168)

Emotional Development 

Teal Swan:

“Oftentimes…the memory happened at such a young age that we did not have our cognitive understanding yet. Our brain was not fully formed. We were in the Emotional Self instead of the Mental Self, because the Mental Self begins to kick in around 8 years old.” Teal explains that “you may not get ‘solid’ images in association with a memory” from so early in life, that you may only have emotions to work with. (“How To Heal The Emotional Body,” 11:45)

Michael Brown:

Our earliest memories are only available to us as emotional signatures.” (149)

The purely emotional experience that begins for us the moment we leave the womb begins tapering off and in many cases ceases its development when we reach the age of seven…This is why we start our schooling around the age of seven, because this time in our life marks the point at which we exit our emotional body development, our childhood, to place a greater focus on our mental body development.” (42)

Brown’s process teaches “how to metaphorically return to the first Seven-Year Cycle that made up our childhood with an intention of bringing balance by integrating experiences that were first imprinted into our emotional body…” (48)


Teal Swan:

Anytime you experience something as upsetting or uncomfortable, it is a triggered memory. You are not, in fact, living anything new in your life. You are experiencing nothing but reflections from your childhood. There is no exceptions to this rule.” (“How To Heal The Emotional Body,” 32:27)

Michael Brown:

Whenever anything happens that upsets us emotionally, whether it appears to us as an event or as another person’s behavior, we are seeing a reflection of our pastUnfortunately, there is no exception to this rule.” (148)

Teal Swan:

“…the surface events which cause the conflict in our lives are not just triggers. They are messengers that are enabling us to be conscious of something that is buried and suppressed deeply within us.” (“Diving Deep (Shadow Work),” 3:47)

Michael Brown:

“…throughout this journey our Inner Presence will set us up (upset us) by deliberately sending outer ‘messengers’ (reflections of our past) to assist us to recall the unintegrated childhood memories that we have long since suppressed. Our Inner Presence does this because the use of reflections (or messengers) is the only way for us to ‘see’ our deeply suppressed past in a way that we can consciously work with it.” (149-150)


Teal Swan:

…it’s the same as trying to change the reflection that’s in the mirror by trying to clean the mirror as much as you can. It doesn’t address the causation of the issue, which is your own pain.” (“Parenting 2.0,” 3:54)

Michael Brown:

We are not going to clean the mirror in an attempt to remove the blemishes from the face of our life experience. We are going to use the mirror, or our experience of the world, as a means to see our blemishes more clearly.” (Brown 68)


Teal Swan:

“If you parent in the same way that your parents parented you, which is the way you’ll parent unless you become more conscious, there is no progression of consciousness. It is a state of endedness. The #1 most important thing we can to for our children is to integrate our own emotional childhood pain. If not, we will pass this wound to our children…” (“Parenting 2.0,” 2:27)

Michael Brown:

“…when we have children, unless we have already resolved our own childhood traumas, all our unconscious and unintegrated emotional issues are subsequently imprinted upon them. I told him that until our children are able to integrate what we unconsciously offload upon them, they cannot begin to live their own life experiences. I told him that all troubled children are reflections of their troubled parents.” (307)

Temporary Fixes

Teal Swan:

“When we want to feel better we try to change the surface circumstances of our experience. We end the relationship, we move to a different city, we put ourselves on a diet, we sign up to a gym, we take a medication. But by doing this, and only this, by looking for and taking a physical action to feel better, we can never escape the original conflict for long. It simply resurfaces in the new relationship, in the new city, regardless of how our diet changes, or how much we exercise, or what medication we take. We perpetuate drama in our lives if the changes that we make change the surface symptom of our problems instead of the deep causation of our pain.” (“Diving Deep (Shadow Work),” 4:03)

Michael Brown:

“‘Getting the message’ changes everything because by doing so we realize that the emotional reactions we feel as a consequence of being triggered have nothing to do with our life as an adult. They are the unintegrated emotions that we have been suppressing for years…They deliberately come to our attention as external circumstances and the behavior of others so that we have the opportunity to see, acknowledge, and integrate them. Until we allow ourselves the opportunity to consciously integrate them, they will diligently keep reoccurring in our adult experience in some form or another—often in a manner that seemingly sets out to sabotage our best intentions.” (161)

Cause and Effect

Teal Swan:

Everything in your life is a byproduct, an effect, of the causality of your childhood trauma.” (“Diving Deep (Shadow Work),” 15:22)

Michael Brown:

“It is crucial at this point in The Presence Process that we understand that an unbalanced adult experience is ‘an effect’, not a cause of anything. It is crucial that we understand this because it is futile tampering with an effect of anything, as it is only at the point of cause that any real change can be initiated. The only value of our adult symptoms of imbalance is that we can use them as clues to successfully navigate our awareness to their childhood causes.” (177)

Shooting the Messenger

Teal Swan:

“The reason that we are so reactive…is because we are unwilling to fully be with our Emotional Body, to be with our feeling impressions, and to reintegrate them. So don’t shoot the messenger. These experiences…are messengers from our subconscious.” (“How To Heal The Emotional Body,” 32:45)

Michael Brown:

As we move through our daily life experience, we are now asked…to watch for ‘the messengers‘: those people or circumstances that push our buttons. DO NOT SHOOT THE MESSENGER!” (154)


Teal Swan:

“The minute you decide that you need to heal something about your emotions, you have now made an enemy of your emotions…The minute you say, “I need to heal,” this implies you have to change or fix something about yourself…” (“How to Heal the Emotional Body,” 8:03)

Michael Brown:

[M]y intention to attempt to heal myself was completely misguided…[T]his natural breathing technique enabled me to integrate that there was a distinct difference between my Self and my experience…I could clearly see that it was my life experience that had become acutely unbalanced and in urgent need of adjusting—not me.” (4)


Teal Swan:

“The most crucial part of doing this process is to trust the process fully, because that’s to trust Yourself to know what it needs to do to reintegrate (which it does).” (How To Heal The Emotional Body,” 11:35)

Michael Brown:

“In all circumstances we are encouraged to trust the process. No one has ever been hurt by breathing normally and naturally.” (136) (Brown repeats this phrase several times throughout the book.)

Rescuing Our Inner Children

Lastly, I want to share an excerpt from The Presence Process on rescuing the child-self. I could have identified a similar quote of Teal’s to compare with this passage. In fact, I could have found a hundred of them. But anyone remotely familiar with Teal’s recent teachings will see the connection.

DURING OUR JOURNEY through The Presence Process, there have already been and are going to be numerous moments when we feel anything but present. During these moments of distraction, we may feel irritable, anxious, annoyed, or even full of fear, rage, and grief. These are the moments
when we are being called upon to consciously attend to our child self.
These are the moments in which we must strive to remember that the states of imbalance that we are feeling have nothing to do with what is happening right now. They are a call for assistance from a very emotional child-like part of our self that is trapped in a mental concept that we have called “the past”

We find a quiet and comfortable space or wait until we have an opportunity to be alone and undisturbed. We then close our eyes and imagine our adult self (the person we are now) standing in front of our child self. We then mentally picture the child that we once were going through the exact same level of emotional imbalance that we are presently feeling in our adult experience. This seemingly imagined scenario is quite real because the feelings that presently drive us to distraction are really the surfacing of suppressed memories echoing from our childhood experiences. Symptoms are echoes. Phonetically the word “symptom” when spoken out loud can be heard as “some time”. This is what a symptom is: a piece of our unintegrated timeline.

Once we have this imagined scenario in mind, it is then up to us to respond compassionately to our child self as a loving and devoted parent would. We must allow and even encourage our child self in this imagined scenario to express its feelings without any censorship or judgment on our behalf. We must metaphorically take it in our arms and unconditionally love and comfort it. We must do whatever it takes—for heaven’s sake. Through this imagined nurturing of our child self, we automatically activate our inner parent and access a state of being called compassion. As its loving parent, we must ask our child self what happened and why it is feeling troubled? We must confidently and sincerely assure it that we will take care of it from this moment onwards and that we will give it all the unconditional love it deserves. Most of all, we must assure our child self that we lived on well beyond the fear it is experiencing. We must tell it about our adult life and invite it to once again become a conscious participant in what we are experiencing from day to day. In this way, we allow it to escape its imprisonment in this mental concept of “the past” and to enter the very real experience of our present circumstances. (180-1, emphasis added)

The Bigger Picture
As I mentioned, I feel that I’ve only skimmed the surface here. My research wasn’t extensive. I tried to be concise with my writing. And yet, this post is seven pages long. If, somehow, you still aren’t convinced, I invite you to read Michael Brown’s work, listen to his teachings, and decide for yourself.

So, what does this mean? Not only has Teal heavily copied the work of another spiritual teacher, but she has corrupted it in such a way that puts vulnerable people at risk for retraumatization, false memory syndrome, and, by her own admission, “self-injury and, potentially, suicide.” (Skip to 1:49:50 to hear that for yourself.) I wrote “An Open Letter to Teal Tribe” knowing that the Completion Process was a bastardization of another author’s work. For those of you who thought my accusations were unfair, I hope that this post has helped you understand my concern by further demonstrating Teal’s recklessness and irresponsibility.

In chapter one of The Completion Process Teal writes that the technique enables us to “restore our integrity.” Of course, Teal means that we can mend and unify our emotional selves. But I wrote this post because I am interested in restoring a different sort of integrity. If you are a fan of Teal’s, I urge you to support Michael Brown’s work. If you aren’t sure what to think of all this, consider testing out his teachings and learning from him before pre-ordering The Completion Process.

I don’t expect perfection from Teal, or any other person, for that matter. But Teal describes herself as a spiritual leader, an exemplar of authenticity and transparency, a woman who is courageous, honest, and real. I believed in and supported this version of Teal for years, but now I am not so sure that she ever existed. Teal, I want to invite you to prove your courage and authenticity. I want to ask you to explain yourself to the fans who have eagerly pre-ordered your book, the facilitators you’ve trained, and Mr. Brown himself.